So I think i like this guy.........lol
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so i went through kind of a rough time a couple weeks ago....i, once again, got screwed over in a relationship. nothing new for me tho...im used to it by now considering this is the 4th relationship in a row. but this has really got 2 stop lol..is there ANY guy out there who can treat a girl with some respect, i mean cmon now! im starting to give up hope haha but anyways, im starting to enjoy the single life...i have a bunch of prospects ib mind so we'll just see what happens! :-)
but as for this livejournal thing...its boring now. i probably wont ever update again, but feel free to leave me a comment!! xoxo
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My heart is shattered
My love is scattered
My body aches
My heart breaks
My soul bleeds
Love is all I need
You give it all
But still I fall
You held on
While I was gone
You love me today
I hope you’ll stay
You’ll love me forever
I wish to always stay together
Sorry I push away
I'm afraid you’ll be gone someday
Maybe soon you’ll walk away
I’ll sit alone feeling astray
I hope that day will never come
Because to you I know I belong
You make me happy when I am down
I can feel your love all around
I know you care
And you’ll always be there
I promise you soon
Out under the moon
All your dreams will come true
Oh, if you only knew
I love you so
Never let me go
You mean everything to me
I'm so glad we both agree
Thank you so much
I love you a bunch
Whenever we’re together I feel great
Just knowing my heart will never again break
I love you
And that’s all I want to do.
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| Date: | 2005-11-06 09:57 |
| Subject: | Updating....... |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  sad | | Music: | Your boyfriend sux-the ataris |
FRIDAY NIGHT WAS A BLAST! definitley gotta do that again! there was some drama...but shit, me krisha erica n jess still had fun!!! haha ummmm last night was fun, molly had her bday party! HAPPY BIRTHDAY btw molly! but in the end it sucked...i think me and ray broke up and im dying. i got 2 the point where i thought i was falling in love with him but we're always fighting and half the time, i dont even know what about. the thought of us not bein 2gether just kills me. i went home last night and told my mom pretty much evrything that has been goin on with me n him and the advice she gave was 2 just let him come 2 me...especially after the things he said to me last night, and especially after hes been stand-off-ish with me this whole week. but i miss him and really want 2 c him right now......i need 2 c him.....and i need 2 talk 2 him and work things out so we can be us again, but mayb he doesnt want that......but most of all.......i NEED to be with him :-/
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the party at my house last night was kick ass! i had so much fun and enjoyed seein a bunch of old faces like jordon and graham!! jess amanda n ewo spent the night...haha...wow...enough said right there! i love making mac n cheese at 2 in the mornin...too bad amanda messed it up so we had 2 make more!! haha amanda, btw, u put the cheese mix in AFTER u drain the water lmao! more good times!!
xoxo
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i felt like i havent updated forever..............so here i am...........updating.........haha
soooo life is pretty much good right now! friends are hilarious, the bf is still around haha and i luv him so much, schoolwork is calming down a lil bit and oh yes......VOLLEYBALL IS OFFICIALLY OVER! its time 2 start workin on my basketball skills!!! this year has already gone by really fast! football season is done in a couple weeks! its not like we're good or nething but their still fun 2 go 2! haha
i love you all!!
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| Date: | 2005-10-09 10:23 |
| Subject: | MY LIFE |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  giddy | | Music: | photograph-nickleback |
I really like Ray. i mean, i really do. last night i had sooo much fun with the girls, it was unbelievable...but still in the back of my mind i wondered what he was doing bcuz i missed him. he is such an amazing person no matter what we're going through, i just dont wanna lose him bcuz he means SO much to me.
i asked him the other day, i was like....what are you doing with me? i mean you need 2 b off finding the girl your gonna marry someday cuz your like 19 and its time 2 start looking. and all he said was...i found her already, i dont need to look anymore. I MEAN WOW i thought that was the cutest thing ever! im just really happy with him even after a month!!! i mean for ya'll who know me...a month is a VERY long time!! haha
but in other news...my friends are awsome! last night was THE best! i wish erica could of been there, it definitley wasnt the same w/out her!! the girls and i had a moment of silence for her tho at the restaurant!! haha and i loved the old men who were hitting on us! haha good times girls!! i love you all..you guys are the best friends i could ever ask for!! xoxo
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dont think i havent forgotton all of those times we spent together...i was so happy looking into your eyes. we clicked. you actually understood me and saw me for me. u knew exactly how i was feeling and i never had to say a word. you would get this cute smile that let me know you were just crazy about me. funny thing is, i was crazy about you too. dont think that ive forgotton who you were...because i havent. i still think about u evry now in then...i wonder what your doing...who your with...who you've moved on to. but you know what, i just really hope your life's been good to you because from what i can tell, its fuckin with you. even tho your not the same, evry time i hear your name i think about ur sweet embrace. the way you hugged me felt like you never wanted to let go. you kissed me like you actually meant it. and evrytime you held my hand, i felt like we were best friends. i could tell you anything and you wouldnt judge me. still, i wonder if i told you something today, you'd be the same way. today your definitley not the same. there's still alot of things i'd like to say to you but i know thats never gonna happen. but the ONE thing i really wish for...i mean, REALLY wish for...is for you to happy no matter what your doing...who your hanging out...or who your with...and i say this because i still love you. i probably always will. this shit just wont go away but no matter what i always see your face. even tho im happy now, i'll never forget you. Bye
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| Date: | 2005-10-01 23:41 |
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| Mood: | giddy | | Music: | photograph-nickleback |
long time no update!:
so i was definitley gonna put HC pix on here but this stupid site wont let me, grr!! so anyways, life is stressful, as usual. volleyballs a bitch, school is kicking my ass and im involved in alota clubs i just dont know wat 2 do! oh yeah but the only 2 things in life that are going good right now are basketball and of course....THE BOYFRIEND :-) can u believe its been 3 weeks n a day! SHIAT! im doin good!! lol for now at least. but i can really see myself being with him for a long time and that is just amazing! tomorrow me n him are goin downtown 2 the college fair thing so i can get some college info, should be exciting! so anyways, vball tourney next saturday at home...evry1 better come up n watch!!
xoxo
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ITS HOMECOMING WEEK BIATCHES! THAT MEANS NO HOMEWORK, 2 VBALL GAMES N A TOURNEY ON SATURDAY! HECK YES! OH AND CORNATATION PRACTICE WED, ASSEMBLY THURS, FOOTBALL GAME FRIDAY! HOW EXCITING!!
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I WISH I SAID THE WORDS I NEVER SHOWED
She looks into the mirror as she wipes away her running mascara and whispers..."I'm so stupid." :-/
Could you look me in the eye and tell me that you’re happy now...?
<*You are my only one*>
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soooo i have been spending alot of quality time with ray these past couple weeks and i talk 2 him pretty much evryday. he is such a wonderful guy and ive learned so much about hiim and even with his faults, hes still amazing. i havent felt this way about a guy in soooo long, or even forever it seems like. he knows exactly how to make me feel better and when he gives me a hug all my problems just disappear. yeah this sounds cheesy but its so true...!
sooo last night he FINALLY popped "THE QUESTION!" lol i had been givin him shit about how we are just friends or i didnt even know what we were. well last night we had our date and when out 2 dinner then watched my FAVORITE movie at his house (THE NOTEBOOK OF COURSE!). but on the way home from dinner he told me he had a surprise for me later and i was like ok hmmm interesting!!! and right b4 i left his house, i was like wait, i never got my surprise! and he was like oh, you'll find out later, just wait by ur phone 2nite and dont go 2 sleep until i call u. so i was officially freaked out cuz i had no idea wat he was gonna do and i was so tired too. so i wait by my phone when i got home and finally it rang at 12:15 and he told me 2 come outside 2 my car. AND HE LEFT TONS OF PINK N WHITE FLOWERS ON MY CAR WITH A CARD!!!! I WAS SO HAPPY CUZ I HAD NEVER GOT FLOWERS B4! SO I STARTED OPENING THE CARD AND IT WAS SO INCREDIBLY SWEET....
"with every moment we share, every smile, every touch, i become more certain that, in ou, Ive found something Ive looked for for a long time. I dont know what the future holds, but I do know how much your touch excites me and how happy i feel when Im with you...and for now, thats MORE than enough" :-) :-) :-)
and then he wrote me this long note inside asking me to be his gf...so YES ladies and gentlemen, rachael tiby has a boyfriend. can u believe its been 1 yr n 3 months...!? WOW
well thats it for now, i just wanted 2 share how amazing he is! i love u all!
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| Date: | 2005-09-04 10:19 |
| Subject: | im really happy |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | giddy | | Music: | Colors-Crossfade |
so life is wonderful right now. i finally found someone who i can c myself with for awhile and thats such an amazing thing because...well...its been awhile...a very LONG while...lol but i like "him" alot! lol well last night me, mr. wonderful and griffen went to dinner and a movie. erica definitley was supposed 2 come but thought the ISU game was more important lol jk! but yeah we saw Red Eye and it was wayyy good!! rachel mcadams was in it and shes my favorite actress so i was excited lol!
but anways! i hope evry1 is having a good school year bcuz im not. i have so much homework its unbelievable!
xoxo always!
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| Date: | 2005-08-28 14:12 |
| Subject: | My FrIeNdZ :-) |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | giddy | | Music: | Photograph-Nikelback (BEST SONG EVER!!!) |
I HAVE SOME OF THE BEST FRIENDS IN THE WHOLE WORLD. THEIR THE BEST FRIENDS SOME1 COULD EVER HAVE AND I LOVE YOU ALL...IDK WHAT I WOULD DO WITHOUT YOU! xoxo
comment and i'll tell you why i love you so much <3
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so i OFFICIALLY want summer to come back. school is sooo incredibly boring and im just not quite with it yet. there are a couple hotties, but no1 is really doin anything for me. molly is goin after the German kid so that boy is outta the question! chelsea is goin after the Valley boy and the other ones are just idiots! moving on...my math teacher totally has it out 4 me!...she totally discriminates against blondes or somethin, idk! the first day, she strongly enforced the dress code to the class bcuz she doesnt approve of innapropriete clothing, but who she REALLY meant to enforce it to is ME! (it was pretty obvious!) lol and then nothin happend the second day but today i was late 2 class so i got a lecture on that, and then i used a pen on my hw instead of a pencil! and so one of those make up for yesterday...and so yeah, she just doesnt like me! lol but my other classes are ok! i have some1 2 hang out w/ in evry class so its all good!! im already tryin 2 make plans for this weekend just so i get my mind off of school. football game friday then saturday..?? but how is school going 4 evry1 else?
~*^I mIsS yOu SoOoOo MuCh YoU hAvE nO IdEa^*~
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| Date: | 2005-08-18 13:10 |
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| Mood: |  content | | Music: | shake it off |
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| Date: | 2005-08-17 09:22 |
| Subject: | i dont know anymore |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | mellow | | Music: | senses fail |
People spend their whole lives trying to be someone their not. They either want to be prettier, more popular, more outgoing, more athletic, and so on. We all have insecurities and that makes us real people. Everyone, no matter who they are, is insecure about something. However, some people have more insecurities than others. The right advice to live by is to be your own person and dont worry about what other people think and to be proud of WHO YOU ARE and not who you want to be. But seriously, isnt that a little hard these days? We're all put in a society where everyday we see or meet people that are better looking, more popular, more outgoing with alot more friends than we have, or who are even better athletes than us. This is what I'd like to call life ladies and gentlemen. Unfortunatley, life isn't fair and you have to take what you got and accept who you truly are, whether its good or bad, or whether you like it or not. I guess my point to this entry is that life isn't fair and we just have to learn to deal. I dont even to know how other people see me, and for the most part i dont even care. Half the people who judge me have never talked to me in their life, so why should i care, right??? ExAcTlY! So I hope all of you are happy with who you are because I'm having a hard time doing that. If any of you have any words of encouragement, that would be great.
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Minnesota was alota fun! the first day i learned how 2 drive a jet ski and went out on the lake by myself..they are soooo cool!! when i got 2 the resort i was just so relaxed and stres free and i forgot about what was actually going on back home. i mean, yeah i missed evry1 TONS but its so amazing up there you just dont wanna leave.
i hung out with some guys that i met named Brian, Andrew n Eric and they are sooo cool! haha Me n andrew had a thing for a week and we were so sad it had 2 end...i havent fully recovered yet lol but we talked all day yesterday about how much we didnt wanna leave. too bad he goes 2 North Dakota State huh! thank god i have pictures. and andrew, if u decide to read this...I MISS YOU! this is goin 2 b the longest year ever if i dont see you :-( and thanks to the guys, i know how 2 water ski, play ping pong and throw a whiffle ball ALOT BETTER NOW hahaha! last night i had a big reunion with all the girls..i missed them alot!!!
"And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it
that you meant it
and I knew
that you meant it
that you meant it..." <3 :-) <3
school starts soon...gayyyy
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| Date: | 2005-08-03 10:17 |
| Subject: | PeAcE uP [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<u*town>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] PeAcE uP <u*ToWn>!! haha |
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| Mood: |  cheerful | | Music: | dashboard |
OMG last night was a blast! a pool party at molly's=FUN! lol it was in honor of krisha's return home and a goodbye to me, i felt so loved!! i definitley made out with Stephanie and Chelsea tho.....lol! its ight tho cuz we're ~!*ThE jEnSeN sLuTs*!~ LMAO! it was very interesting tho..and we played Truth or Dare in Mollys hot tub w/ like 11 ppl, it was great...lol! i definitley saw alota naked bodies last night, it was very...interesting! but partys are just kick ass over there and i had alota fun. i think there was probably like 25 ppl over there it was pretty crazy! i saw some man-on-man action...BUT I WONT REPEAT ANY NAMES CUZ THEY WOULD KILL ME and the only reason they did it was 2 c us girls make out lol. but umm...i like this certain someone!
i got Krisha a welcome home present..a balloon, homemade card n a rose! i hope she likes it!!!
this will probably b my last entry 4 awhile bcuz im goin 2 Minnesota 2morro 4 9 days...im really excited tho cuz its amazing up there and just totally relaxing! so leave me a comment so i'll have something to read when i get home! I WILL MISS EVERYONE!
xoxo
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| Date: | 2005-07-30 15:54 |
| Subject: | IM HOME!!! |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | happy | | Music: | FOB |
SOOOOO CREIGHTON WAS A BLAST!!!!!!! our team bonding ativities were just GREAT haha especially catch phrase! lol im pretty sure we had all 20 of us playing so it was great. we went 5-5...but we still had alota fun and im officially in love with all of the girls, they are just way cool! and jenna ness talks on her phone WAYYYY too much, shes so popular..seriously, can i be her please! haha jenna's room is officially the party room. we got like 19 girls in 1 dorm room, it was great! lol we had some very interesting late night convos...haha about boys! ive had such a blonde week it seems like..i got in trouble 4 stealing my moms hair glue (haha retarded, i know!)..then i ruined my phone and lost all my numbers..then i locked me and katie out of our room when we were stuck in our towels bcuz we were gettin ready 2 take a shower..then i lose 1 of my towels..then i lost my room key but some1 else found it..and then i was late 2 our game this mornin bcuz i overslept..but courtney did too!! haha and i walk in ali's room and shes just sittin there eating like no big thing and i was like OMG WE'RE LIKE 5 MINUTES LATE ALREADY AND I JUST WOKE UP!! so yeah creighton was a blast! i <3 the bball girls!
sooooooooo i ruined my phone and have no numbers so if u would like 2 be in my phone book leave me ur number!!
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